Monday, May 21, 2012

My Mother's Day! And the week after...

Yes, I started this post over a week ago. And never got around to finishing it!! There goes my goal of posting everyday for a month. Oh well. It was fun while it lasted. Even though I didn't post at all last week, the girls and I still had lots of fun. I'm sort of falling off the internet world again. I was off facebook for over 9 months and hardly blogged and it was nice. I came back to interact with friends and that's not really happening. So I'm kind of not spending time on the computer, hence the reason of no posts last week. I liked being off. I liked just having my weight loss blog. I feel when I share my accomplishments or something on the great world of facebook, I get comments that I'm "bragging" It's kind of bringing me down and not helping me. I really enjoyed updating my weight loss blog and sort of knowing no one looked at it...I wasn't scared to post my successes or failures because I knew I wouldn't get peoples opinions. So, yet again, I'm going off facebook. I wish that my friends on facebook actually wanted to hangout, IN PERSON and not just chat online. Sad. But it is what it is. I'm a MUCH happier person not being on there. It's addicting. You have to see what your friends post, even if it's something silly as "oh just cleaning the house today" I'm probably weak but it gives me something to do. I will continue to update this blog and get back to updating my weight loss blog. I enjoy it. I love the fact that I have been able to help motivate or inspire several friends, but I don't like feeling insecure with posting about my accomplishments. I got over insecurity when I off facebook, but I feel lots of emotions coming back. Anyway, I've changed a lot over these past few months and I REALLY enjoyed it. But being back in the internet world and getting distracted with facebook I've suck into depression again. Mild depression. But still, depression.

Anyway, on to my post for today.

From a week ago!

Mother's Day this year was awesome! I mean come on, being a mom to these TWO beautiful girls, it doesn't get any better than that!!
This year was really special for me. I think it's really because I am FINALLY happy and FINALLY loving being a mom. Motherhood is hard stuff. I've been trying with all my might to turn my life around, and I feel I'm finally doing it! I love my girls so much and I love being their Mommy!

Tanner got me a wonderful gift this year! A little background on him....he isn't the most romantic man, he doesn't really do gifts and when he does, he bought the gift the day of the special occasion. So...last Saturday, the week BEFORE Mother's Day, we were sitting in the kitchen and all of a sudden he's all "Oh crap!.....This wasn't suppose to happen like this!" I asked what he was talking about and he replied "Tomorrow?.....Mother's Day??...." I just stared at him, confused, and finally said, "Babe, it's next week." hahahaha Sunday morning he handed me 2 boxes. One was a BEAUTIFUL PEARL necklace from the SHANE COMPANY! What?! If I were expecting jewelry, I was expected Walmart brand! Not high quality stuff!! I also got a pearl bracelet! I was so shocked! This is the first time he's bought me jewelry! Not only was the gift beautiful and of good quality but he actually had gotten the gift a few days early! I felt extremely loved!

Last week....

 Like how Mylee stuffed the WHOLE strawberry in her mouth??

 Daddy came home with water balloons one day! 

 This is how Kendal tried filling them up, didn't work very well ;)

 I missed this! Tanner was going to empty the cooler of water and I didn't realize he was going to dump it all on Kendal!!! What a silly Daddy!

 He thinks he's SO funny!

 Loving her after he dumped the water on her!

On Friday we went to the Desert Botanical Gardens. It was very beautiful but I think I want to go back next spring when all the flowers are actually in bloom! And not dying.


 Kendal wanted to carry my purse around! 

 See the lizard??

 I dyed laughing when I saw this cactus! "Old man" cactus! Look at the fuzz!! 

Well, on to another week. Not sure if I'm really going to be posting everyday. But I do enjoy keeping my blog up to date. It's fun to look back on!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

What A Day!!!

Holy cow! Yesterday was a BUSY day!! Let's start off at 5:15AM shall we?? I woke up a little earlier than normal due to a 5k race I was running. I wanted to wake up early to make sure I was well hydrated before the race. As I sat around waiting for the time to leave, I was pretty relaxed. I was REALLY nervous all night and didn't really sleep at all. My heart was racing and it kept me up. In my mind, this race was really important to me. I wanted to do well. To be honest, I wanted to WIN. (Winning as in first for my age group) When we got to the race I got REALLY intimidated because of how many runners there were. I soon pushed my goal of winning aside and just thought about my time. I wanted to PR. I had my fastest time in a race was 26minutes and 6 seconds. I had run a 5k by myself the other day because of how awful my last race was (28minutes) I ran it in just over 23 minutes. I was really hoping to beat that at this race. So, as I warmed up I was able to push my nerves away and relax. They called all the runners over to the starting line to get ready. I went straight to the back.The race is chip timing so my time didn't start until I crossed a certain point. During the race, my legs felt like dead weights. I don't know why but ever since I got my new shoes I've felt that way. I'm kind of bummed about it. Maybe I'm still trying to break them in? Anyway, at about 2 1/2 miles in, I was so hot. Feeling overheated and a little nauseous. I tried all Friday and all morning to stay hydrated and eat well, but I think my body just doesn't like the heat. Or isn't used to it because I've only really ran in the winter. About a half mile left, I was really wanting to walk. REALLY wanting to. But I saw the finish line and decided I wanted to finish this out with a bang. My IPOD, which I was using for timing, had said I was already at 23 minutes so I knew I hadn't reached my time goal so I decided just to finish as best I could. 200 meters til the finish line I could hear my husband whistling and saw my awesome Mother in law and Sister in law there cheering me on. So I pushed hard to cross the line. Their clock had said 26 minutes and 30 seconds. I knew it wasn't that slow. I waited and waited for the results. I didn't want to leave. I still had kind of hoped that I placed in my age group. As the announcer came on and did the results for over all top 3 women, I kind of wasn't listening. I was because I wanted to make sure I was going to hear the results for the age groups. "3rd place over all women with a time of 24 minutes and 26 seconds goes to Emily Buck" HEY!!! That's ME!!! I looked at Tanner and just starting BAWLING. Luckily I had my sunglasses on because I was kind of embarressed at how much I was crying. I walked up to the table to claim my medal. They said that they didn't give out a medal for the overall placings. WHAT??? Why not!? haha I wanted a medal! Then they said maybe I had placed in my age group. Ok, let's look. I took FIRST! I started to tear up again, got my medal, and then ran back to Tanner. This was just so awesome. I couldn't believe that not only did I win my age group, but out of ALL the women, I took THIRD!! Heck yes!! I just sat in my chair, beaming. I was so incredibly happy. I have busted my BUTT off these past 7 months. I have worked so hard to lose weight and to actually WIN and be successful, oh man, the feeling is just too strong for words. I'm so so happy. For once in my life I feel amazing. I feel strong. And I feel beautiful. Knowing that I've been able to push myself so hard these past few months to get here where I am is so incredible. Having struggled for years to be motivated and to feel beautiful, finally reaching this point in indescribable.  I'm so happy. 

 Sandra and Carly!!

After the race we headed out to go take a few family pictures for a friend. (Remember that mom who is awesome. Miracle?) After that we headed home for lunch and then went to Wet N Wild! My brothers, Time and Ben, Tim's wife Christina, my running buddy Annie and her family all came along! We were there for about 5 hours!! At the end, I was so beat. The sun was just killing me. It was pretty warm out. We headed to my parent's house after the water park for Mother's Day. We ate dinner and then left for home. It was such a busy day! I didn't really get many photos because I didn't want to bring my nice camera to the water park. But anyway, today is Mother's Day!! I will hopefully post about it tonight! But, it's another busy busy day! Happy Mother's Day!!

Friday, May 11, 2012

Short and Sweet

We went for a 6 mile bike ride this morning. Kendal rode 2 whole miles on her little bike with no training wheels! I'm soo proud of her! The other 4 miles she played with ALL the toys I packed in the bike stroller with Mylee. They sure are heavy both being in the trailer! I wanted to make sure the girls were occupied while on the ride! I didn't take any photos of the ride. After the bike ride we came out and made lunch and played. I didn't make playdough like I wanted to, well like Kendal wanted to. The bike ride took up most our morning. (mainly cuz we went later in the morning) It was nice to actually have the girls sit and play with toys. They rarely do that anymore. I think it's because I didn't do much with them before this week so playing with toys was the only option. And it got boring. So, after a few days of not touching most their toys, the actually sat and quietly played! 

 Kendal got buzz to hold her barbie. She ran around the room several times yelling "Buzz Lightyear! To the Rescue!" While Barbie was in his arms. How romantic! ;)

 Playing peek-a-boo!

 Being tired. 

 Kendal decided she wanted to play with the stroller so she picked Mylee up and buckled her in. We don't have much room in the house so she just spun her around in circles!

 Save me Mommy!


Kendal loves silk! Anything silk she will sit for a minute or two and "scrub" the silk together. She has done this since she was 18 months old or so. It's pretty funny. She gets this exact look on her face, you can tell she's tired! 

 The girls took a LONG nap today! They both took a shorter one yesterday and woke up early this morning. Mylee got a 4 hour nap and Kendal 3 hours! It was wonderful! Know what I did during nap?? NOTHING! haha well, a few dishes. But really I just kind of laid in bed and thought about nothing. It. was. nice. Pretty silly, huh? I just feel like I've been going a mile a minute this week. I've loved playing more with my girls but I haven't just sat with no noise. I'm pretty lame. But whatever! :)

Tonight we went to a little buddy's birthday party! It was so much fun for the girls to play! I don't think I saw either of them the whole 2 hours we were there. (I did, but not for too long) It was fun.
 It's still SOO cute to see little Mylee just walking everywhere. She's all over the house now. Just walking in circles and pointing to everything. She is such a sweet little girl.

Kendal, such a stinker. Wouldn't let me take a picture of her. 

Well, tomorrow is a very exciting day for us! I have a 5k race in the morning, which I'm VERY excited for, and spending the afternoon at Wet N Wild. Then later doing a Mother's Day dinner with my mom! Hoping for lots of photos to share tomorrow night!